Chapter #2 - Idealization - The First Stop in the Narcissist's Cycle of Abuse

The cycle of narcissistic abuse consists of four phases, each one engineered to break you down.

1.  Idealization 
2.  Devaluation  
3. Discard
4. Hoovering

 In the next four blogs, we will explore those cycles thoroughly.

I've made the decision to incorporate parts of my experience in hopes to provide you with real-life examples. I will not be using real names and I won't go into the entire story, only parts relating to the cycle. 

I am also more than happy to answer any questions or clarify the content if you need. Part of my healing has largely been about awareness and helping others avoid similar fates to mine, so just ask. Now, let's dive into the material of the first phase.

Idealization 

From the first moment they meet you the narcissist has been concocting a devious plan to snare you in their trap. By definition, the word idealization means to put a person on a pedestal as a hero of some sort. In order to lure you into the trap, the narcissist has to use some sort of bait. This process is described with phrases like love bombing and the soulmate effect. 

In the event you feel foolish for succumbing to the charade, please know that you are not alone. We are insanely huge in number. You also aren't dumb for not seeing the signs either. A Narc does a terrifyingly perfect job while executing their plan. 

During this phase, the Narc will use a few tools in his ever-growing arsenal to achieve his or her goal. Let's take a look at a few:

Love Bombing

Once they turn on that award-winning charm possessed and perfected by Narcs all over the world, you will become putty in their hands. You will be showered with adoration and gifts. The Narc will wine and dine you at the best restaurants. You'll get numerous texts and calls to let you know they are thinking of you; that they can't get you off their mind. You will be complimented on anything and everything from the tone of your voice to the way you dress. 

The Soulmate Effect 

Everything about their actions will lead you to believe this is it! The love of a lifetime! This tactic will make everything feel like a dream come true. He or she will claim to have every interest you do, share every passion you have. Are you a devout Catholic? So are they! The Narc will share the same views on politics, social issues - basically everything and anything.

This is where they tell you they have fallen deeply in love with you - never mind the fact you've only known each other a few weeks. You begin to experience what you believe is deep intimacy and soul-deep understanding of one another. You've never known such a sense of belonging. 

This is where the real manipulation begins. By establishing a sense of unbreakable trust, the Narc allows you to confide in them all of your deepest and darkest fears and insecurities as well as your secrets. It is by way of these that he or she will target your needs and vulnerabilities. 

All of these feelings give you such an incredible high that you quickly become addicted to their very existence.  However, all of this is simply an illusion - an extremely temporary one at that. This is where your value as a source of supply is discovered and a roadmap of destruction is created. 

This behavior becomes erratic and less frequent appearances through the next phase - devaluation. They continue to come and go for three specific reasons:

1. To be used as a means to keep you trauma bonded - a bond that is the result of such a cycle of abuse. When the abuse begins, it occurs so quickly that you begin to justify the behavior or even blame yourself.
2. To keep you on eggshells around them, constantly trying to earn back your 'soulmate' to replace the monster.
3. To trap you into staying with the hopes of restoring that love you believe you have lost. 

By constantly returning to this behavior, the Narc keeps you focused on how amazing it once was and hopes of turning things back around. It's easier to walk away from a situation where kindness and concern for your well-being are never shown. If you have no reason to believe this person will never change there's no reason to stick around. 

This manipulation occurs gradually and almost without notice to systematically lower and eventually erase your boundaries entirely. You find your belief of being soulmates causes you to drop your guard so the Narc can gather all the info they will ever need to build the roadmap to your demise. By returning to the love fest, the Narc is able to continue to disarm and confuse you.

It's Not Your Fault

You're not a fool to have fallen for this technique. The manipulation is so perfect and seamless that even the smartest people with the highest levels of self-esteem fall victim as quickly and easily as you did. In my personal experience as a victim of narcissism, I found myself accepting of treatment and behavior that I had never previously or since tolerated - leading me to wonder what the hell happened? How did I lose control? 

This isn't even the worst of it. We'll dive into the evaluating stage in the next chapter. Hang in there....